As I watch the number of days to the big day decrease.. decrease.. and decrease, this question about my future comes out all too often. I hear it everywhere. Home. School. My head. It has really started to dawn on me that how I do at the end of the year is going to determine my place and future in this rotten little hell hole. I live in this hell hole, so I have to adapt to this hell hole. No matter how much school asks out of me, I have to give the same amount back. I know I can do well and promise myself a good future, but what?
Really, what? Up until now I've only considered the ACJC route as a feasible plan. Based on what I'm looking for, ACJC can give me everything. That warm, christian environment I love, a good JC education and the hearty affiliation bonus. I have to work hard there, but at the same time I can have the time of my life. And I don't mind that, I don't think anyone does. :) Any alternative would be SAJC. But...
What if I don't want to only go one way? What if I want another route? Kay, the ACS (I) sharing really got me thinking. The principal came and told us about IB today, and honestly, it sounded really refreshing and great. I mean, I don't believe education can be holistic through the usual methods, papers and pens, papers and pens..... more papers and pens. I've always thought that education should be so much more than just this boring routine. And the sharing really agreed with this opinion of mine today, IB sounds amazing, learning through travelling, being filmed as an exam, lesser written examinations...
But, it's demanding. Really, 5 points. 5. You have to study everyday. It sucks the life out of you. Nononononono. I guess I have to say that despite how attractive it sounds, no thanks. So I guess it's back to ACJC and the fun life eh. Okay, so let's say I settle into ACJC. What happens then? What happens after As? Yeah, I talked about NTU and NUS.. but really? Is it too early to talk about this?
I'm only sixteen, I'm only human, it would be nice to get a decent break from all the choices I have to make. I mean, all I seriously want is to stop having to study to please people. Sometimes I don't even know if I'm pleasing myself. Hmmm, what do I want?
Really, what? Up until now I've only considered the ACJC route as a feasible plan. Based on what I'm looking for, ACJC can give me everything. That warm, christian environment I love, a good JC education and the hearty affiliation bonus. I have to work hard there, but at the same time I can have the time of my life. And I don't mind that, I don't think anyone does. :) Any alternative would be SAJC. But...
What if I don't want to only go one way? What if I want another route? Kay, the ACS (I) sharing really got me thinking. The principal came and told us about IB today, and honestly, it sounded really refreshing and great. I mean, I don't believe education can be holistic through the usual methods, papers and pens, papers and pens..... more papers and pens. I've always thought that education should be so much more than just this boring routine. And the sharing really agreed with this opinion of mine today, IB sounds amazing, learning through travelling, being filmed as an exam, lesser written examinations...
But, it's demanding. Really, 5 points. 5. You have to study everyday. It sucks the life out of you. Nononononono. I guess I have to say that despite how attractive it sounds, no thanks. So I guess it's back to ACJC and the fun life eh. Okay, so let's say I settle into ACJC. What happens then? What happens after As? Yeah, I talked about NTU and NUS.. but really? Is it too early to talk about this?
I'm only sixteen, I'm only human, it would be nice to get a decent break from all the choices I have to make. I mean, all I seriously want is to stop having to study to please people. Sometimes I don't even know if I'm pleasing myself. Hmmm, what do I want?
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