So today's Saturday, and yesterday probably wasn't a dream because my eyes are still dangerously puffy from the crying. Lol yeah yesterday was.. both a good and bad day. Mostly bad but I chose to squeeze the good out of it. I really didn't like the sight of a B3 apparently, because after I signed the mark sheet and went back to my seat I started crying... and until I reached the bus stop I was still crying lololol. Don't know what to do with myself. Even when washing my face, I was trying to wash tears off, but my eyes were producing more. Sigh sigh. I think I really wanted that A LOLLLL. But I'm very embarrassed for crying like a pussy because many people on 74 were looking at me at the bus stop and they looked very scared.
But I really thank God that I'm a strong person. Celine goes "see that's what I like about you Sharmaine, you were crying like shit just now, and look at you now!" And I also have many people who care so much about me to thank. I think everyone got very scared at how I was crying that so many people came to talk to me and comfort me. I cried until my eyes became half its normal size. Half its normal size! That's like everybody else's normal size! :O :O :O But seriously, my friends are so caring and great that I wonder what I did to deserve them. Celine sat with me in school until I sort of stopped crying, and the bus ride home with her was very therapeutic. We were supposed to go eat lunch. Restaurant for good grades and food court for bad grades hahahaha. But since I looked like a monster we just ended up going to my house. And we just spent time watching JStuStudios and other shit until I cried. But this time, out of laughter. :)
So just to show everyone exactly how great my friends are, I'm going to place a few messages here so that I can keep them and read them forever.
"good to hear you're better:) we really didn't know how to comfort you, but thank God for celine! i'm not 'fit' to comfort you especially on this chinese o's results but i know clearly what disappointment's like, and just want to tell you that God doesnt withhold anything good from us, so He definitely has His plans for giving you a B3"
"You are a brave and strong girl, You can do it! 上帝相信你，我也相信你！"
"You're my good friend, I don't like seeing you sad. And I'm sure you'd do that for me too"
And these are just messages. I get things better than messages :') I sent Celine down to the lobby and insisted on waiting with her until her mom came, but she said "no, go up I want you to spend time with your family." So in the end I admitted defeat and she gave me a big hug. To people, it's just a hug. But to me, it was more than that. So I think all the messages speak for themselves about how lucky a girl I am.
And to prove that I have defeated the o level bug, I am going to post some stupid shit I wrote in my diary.
18th September 2008
Dear Diary, I have to write again coz sometimes I just can't stand doing work?! I must do it right now. Oh forget it. I'll do work.
xoxo
Sharmaine
17th August 2009
Hey Diary! I am so happy. I'm gonna ace the chem test! But I made a careless mistake like, who thought copper was Co? Everyone knows its Cu! OMG. Yay, later after I study life science, i'm gonna watch Little Nyonya. I'm gonna see dyt, woot woot!
xoxo
Sharmaine
GUESS WHAT?! I'm gonna try to write a diary entry in CHINESE for the first time.
06th September 2009
Dear Diary, 今天是星期天，我现在正要做LA功课，可是我想到了这个办法。Diary，你可以读我的字吗？我的华文很烂吗？我每次都这样认为。今天是我女佣的生日。我没送她礼物耶！对不起，我没时间。现在我也在听Taylor Swift 的歌。 对哦，我的“朋友” 来了。9月2日来。 我不怕。。。我还觉得挺开心的。哈哈。好了我不写了。拜拜！
xoxo
杨斯名
Oh my, I'm so embarrassing. So yeah. I'm happy and fine about everything. Retaking Os won't hurt. :)
But I really thank God that I'm a strong person. Celine goes "see that's what I like about you Sharmaine, you were crying like shit just now, and look at you now!" And I also have many people who care so much about me to thank. I think everyone got very scared at how I was crying that so many people came to talk to me and comfort me. I cried until my eyes became half its normal size. Half its normal size! That's like everybody else's normal size! :O :O :O But seriously, my friends are so caring and great that I wonder what I did to deserve them. Celine sat with me in school until I sort of stopped crying, and the bus ride home with her was very therapeutic. We were supposed to go eat lunch. Restaurant for good grades and food court for bad grades hahahaha. But since I looked like a monster we just ended up going to my house. And we just spent time watching JStuStudios and other shit until I cried. But this time, out of laughter. :)
So just to show everyone exactly how great my friends are, I'm going to place a few messages here so that I can keep them and read them forever.
"good to hear you're better:) we really didn't know how to comfort you, but thank God for celine! i'm not 'fit' to comfort you especially on this chinese o's results but i know clearly what disappointment's like, and just want to tell you that God doesnt withhold anything good from us, so He definitely has His plans for giving you a B3"
"You are a brave and strong girl, You can do it! 上帝相信你，我也相信你！"
"You're my good friend, I don't like seeing you sad. And I'm sure you'd do that for me too"
And these are just messages. I get things better than messages :') I sent Celine down to the lobby and insisted on waiting with her until her mom came, but she said "no, go up I want you to spend time with your family." So in the end I admitted defeat and she gave me a big hug. To people, it's just a hug. But to me, it was more than that. So I think all the messages speak for themselves about how lucky a girl I am.
And to prove that I have defeated the o level bug, I am going to post some stupid shit I wrote in my diary.
18th September 2008
Dear Diary, I have to write again coz sometimes I just can't stand doing work?! I must do it right now. Oh forget it. I'll do work.
xoxo
Sharmaine
17th August 2009
Hey Diary! I am so happy. I'm gonna ace the chem test! But I made a careless mistake like, who thought copper was Co? Everyone knows its Cu! OMG. Yay, later after I study life science, i'm gonna watch Little Nyonya. I'm gonna see dyt, woot woot!
xoxo
Sharmaine
GUESS WHAT?! I'm gonna try to write a diary entry in CHINESE for the first time.
06th September 2009
Dear Diary, 今天是星期天，我现在正要做LA功课，可是我想到了这个办法。Diary，你可以读我的字吗？我的华文很烂吗？我每次都这样认为。今天是我女佣的生日。我没送她礼物耶！对不起，我没时间。现在我也在听Taylor Swift 的歌。 对哦，我的“朋友” 来了。9月2日来。 我不怕。。。我还觉得挺开心的。哈哈。好了我不写了。拜拜！
xoxo
杨斯名
Oh my, I'm so embarrassing. So yeah. I'm happy and fine about everything. Retaking Os won't hurt. :)
