My 2012 is not going to end with me dying.
I do not believe in that. What I believe in is that life will go on, that means I'll have Christmas to celebrate, sleepovers to hold, clothes to buy, food to eat, shit to shit, results to collect, tears to cry and then JC to worry about. Then in the not so distant future I will have a family to take care of, but that's for much, much later.
Os have already ended but it hasn't really hit me yet that 2012 is also going to end in countable days. I pictured one year to be longer than this, and ten years to be ten times longer. My chapter in MGS has no doubt come to an end too soon that I feel too unprepared and absolutely not ready to begin a new one. But I guess everyone comes across these feelings at some point of their lives, that kind of irritating nothingness where you don't know if you should feel happy or if you should mourn or if you should just relax. To add on to that you have no idea of what to expect from 2013 and no one to give you it. Then again I guess everyone just makes it through this nothingness and in the end, they either love or hate what they've went through. I hope I don't feel the latter.
What I'm hoping from the remaining of 2012 is basically simple things, nothing to do with games or clothes or money or whatever. I just want to make use of the remaining 2 over months to maximise the time spent with my friends and my time spent doing shit. Not literally, but I'm really someone who loves fun and I want to have fun with my friends while I still can, doing what I love (eating, sports, reading, watching movies, doing cip, meeting new people, trying new things). I'm glad I've been kinda doing all this already, because I don't see how else I can have so much fun lol. As of 28th November 2012, I've read many books, seen many movies, ate a lot, went out a lot, that I'll be happy to start school regardless of what awaits me.
What I'm hoping from the start of 2013 is in one sentence - an extraordinary year. I hope it's fresh, new and fun. I don't know what awaits me yet but I confess that I still hope to be in a comfortable environment. It doesn't mean I won't want to meet new kinds of people and make different kinds of friends. That's something I'm looking forward to a lot. Maybe I do have an idea of what to expect - more stress, more books, but hey, that's all part of the fun. And finally I also hope that at the end of 2013, I will be praying like I am now that 2014 will be as good as 2013.
I do not believe in that. What I believe in is that life will go on, that means I'll have Christmas to celebrate, sleepovers to hold, clothes to buy, food to eat, shit to shit, results to collect, tears to cry and then JC to worry about. Then in the not so distant future I will have a family to take care of, but that's for much, much later.
Os have already ended but it hasn't really hit me yet that 2012 is also going to end in countable days. I pictured one year to be longer than this, and ten years to be ten times longer. My chapter in MGS has no doubt come to an end too soon that I feel too unprepared and absolutely not ready to begin a new one. But I guess everyone comes across these feelings at some point of their lives, that kind of irritating nothingness where you don't know if you should feel happy or if you should mourn or if you should just relax. To add on to that you have no idea of what to expect from 2013 and no one to give you it. Then again I guess everyone just makes it through this nothingness and in the end, they either love or hate what they've went through. I hope I don't feel the latter.
What I'm hoping from the remaining of 2012 is basically simple things, nothing to do with games or clothes or money or whatever. I just want to make use of the remaining 2 over months to maximise the time spent with my friends and my time spent doing shit. Not literally, but I'm really someone who loves fun and I want to have fun with my friends while I still can, doing what I love (eating, sports, reading, watching movies, doing cip, meeting new people, trying new things). I'm glad I've been kinda doing all this already, because I don't see how else I can have so much fun lol. As of 28th November 2012, I've read many books, seen many movies, ate a lot, went out a lot, that I'll be happy to start school regardless of what awaits me.
What I'm hoping from the start of 2013 is in one sentence - an extraordinary year. I hope it's fresh, new and fun. I don't know what awaits me yet but I confess that I still hope to be in a comfortable environment. It doesn't mean I won't want to meet new kinds of people and make different kinds of friends. That's something I'm looking forward to a lot. Maybe I do have an idea of what to expect - more stress, more books, but hey, that's all part of the fun. And finally I also hope that at the end of 2013, I will be praying like I am now that 2014 will be as good as 2013.
