Choices~

What exactly are choices? Choices are decisions. These decisions can be different in so many ways - some can be as easy as picking what to eat for dinner, but some might involve decisions so indescribable and painful for a small heart, weak and frail, and just starting out. I ponder about the day ahead - What will happen? Will anything change? Would there be answers floating above me?

So many guide me, show me my path, but yet I still wonder about what the future will be like. I guess some things are pretty unpredictable. I still am seeking for answers. I'm sitting in the living room alone, surrounded by melancholic quietness, with the laptop slowly burning up my cool thighs that are being blown by the electric wind.

I can't stand uncertainty at all. I hate to sit in the middle of a hard floor, clasping my confused head in my hands, racking my brains to make big decisions. I'm only 14, but yet I'm always obliged to make unthinkable and huge decisions.

Friends, studies, family, future.....all this can make that bubbling volcano inside of me explode.

Sometimes, things come to a point whereby decisions turn to things that I actually have to carry out. I rarely get to put an opinion in, its just a do it. But~ although I pour out everything onto my blog now, I only just poured out the surface of my glass of drink, what remains is something bitter.

But I'm like this, I wanna end everything off on a good note. I know that God's always here for me, and that when there's a will, there's definitely a way. God's bright light has always been shining above the black clouds, turning their dull colour into unexplainable happiness.

Waking up tomorrow, I'm definitely going to glance at the blue sky and greet it with a wide smile - a smile so wide that it'll shock the sky. Hey, who knows, maybe the sky will smile back.

<3
Sharm

I don't hate mondays~

Oh how I love sundays. Actually, I love long weekends. Thank you youth day, now, I don't hate mondays anymore! Because of you, I get to still lay my fingers on my humble keyboard at this hour. (: Today I had an awesome time out (: The typical boring sunday where we follow the normal routine changed into one filled with warm smiles, sweet laughter, and ice-cream! (:

Choc really makes me so guilty yet pleased. :D After the sinful, delicious and bittersweet frozen choc melted in my mouth at udders, it was off to the cinema for Toy Story 3. Shev, Charlotte, Issax and I jumped off our seats like little kids and hopped all the way up to the cinema. Boy, were we early.

Toy Story's a great movie (: We were kinda late though, cos I heard that its gonna stop screening soon. This week probably. The movie was hilarious yet sad and depressing. There were parts that made me wanna go "ROFL", but some parts that made me need some tissues, and finally parts that made me wanna break my chair.

In other words, the movie is a suspenseful heartbreaker with a hint of comedy. I don't mind watching it again! (:

Dear today, I'll miss you so much.

<3
Sharm

His love is mine~

Last night was a night like no other. Last night will stay one of best memories. Last night, was love.

Love MGS, what do I think when I hear these two words? Many think that Love MGS is just another boring service where the adults listen to sermons, the teens nap and the children scream. Love mg was way more. Held in the humble and glorious auditorium last night, MG girls, ACJC peeps crowded the place with hugs and smiles before the event started.

No matter which corner I peered at, everyone's face was embedded with a sweet glow. A glow that was just so pleasing. Love mg started off with some worship songs. Everyone was just opening their mouths to sing at first, including me. Sometimes, I'm not really sure if we sing from the bottom of our hearts.

But this changed in a very short period of time.

Soon, after minutes, a miracle happened. Almost everyone raised their hands up high to glorify God our father. It was as though this wave of love swept over everyone. Even I closed my two eyes and sang my heart out to God. The empty auditorium at 6:40p.m. transformed into a place shining with warmth, love and God at 7:40 p.m.

The presence of the Lord was just overwhelming. At the altar, when Esther spoke her very first word of prayer, tears of guilt, sin, and love for the Lord streamed out of my cold, dry eyes that were longing and yearning for the Lord. They continued flowing. For God.

God picked up my call. He answered me. He entered my empty and soulless heart and filled it with love, so much more love than anyone could ever give to me. My tears were also a form of thank you to the Lord, because he just spoke to me and gave me new life.

Thank you Lord God. I quote this from today's God's message. "God has been answering you." Because of last night, I finally realised this message that God has been trying so painstakingly to convey to me. I hear you Lord, I finally do. 


"His love is mine" <3


<3
Sharm