Make a difference

I have a big dream.

A dream to change lives.

People can call me crazy all they want, but I don't see a reason for me to cheapen my dreams... Every time I do see I pee (sorry, cip :P), the after comfort of knowing that I could have potentially changed a life comforts me. At the end of every single cip, the urge I get to do life changing things gets stronger. And stronger. Right now it has come up to a point where I really HAVE to make it happen. If I don't, I fear the fear of not being the person I dreamt to be. 

Just the other day I was at SAAS doing cip yet again. But I wouldn't say that I was changing lives though. I say that because autism isn't a disability, it's only a communication problem. They don't need help because most of them are smarter than me. I should be getting help, we all should be getting help. But I was there hoping to add on to the joy they already posess. Then again, I may have been the person receiving it.

Do people nowadays really know what joy is? People nowadays are easily pleased, but all by the wrong things. Popularity, friends, clothes, idols, music, girls, boys... if you tell me these things "complete" you, I might as well just stop living shouldn't I. Not that I'm not guilty of the things I mentioned above. I definitely am. Guilty pleasures are all part of having fun when you're young. But the difference is, guilty pleasures aren't the key to your lock, they can NEVER NEVER complete you, even if you try your hardest to make them to. I'm sorry, but that's a fact. 

I may not be the best person to describe what real joy is, but I may have had a slight taste of it after doing so many see I pees. And you wouldn't believe how simple experiencing that joy was. If you say autistic kids can't show affection, oh you're wrong, because Daryl, Vimal, Willis, Lucas and Timothy are just perfect examples of why you should rethink that stereotype. They can. And that's the most amazing thing, the surprises. You would never expect any of these kids to make eye contact with you, much less hold your hand, but they did. And that's what brought me that slight taste of joy I was talking about. Seeing kids you'd never expect to smile, smile. And at you even. Having kids that cannot stay still hold your hand. THEY are what I call true blessings from heaven :')

I want to change multiple lives actually. Mine, and other lives. I want to make more people smile just as much as I want them to make me smile. This is the person I want to be, because I want to live for a purpose and not lead a regretful, fatass, "waiting to die" kind of life. I want to be the person that makes that difference. 

I want to be an inspiration.

This story below inspired me, and reminded me of what I want to do in life, so I'd like to share it here :)

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