Choices~

What exactly are choices? Choices are decisions. These decisions can be different in so many ways - some can be as easy as picking what to eat for dinner, but some might involve decisions so indescribable and painful for a small heart, weak and frail, and just starting out. I ponder about the day ahead - What will happen? Will anything change? Would there be answers floating above me?

So many guide me, show me my path, but yet I still wonder about what the future will be like. I guess some things are pretty unpredictable. I still am seeking for answers. I'm sitting in the living room alone, surrounded by melancholic quietness, with the laptop slowly burning up my cool thighs that are being blown by the electric wind.

I can't stand uncertainty at all. I hate to sit in the middle of a hard floor, clasping my confused head in my hands, racking my brains to make big decisions. I'm only 14, but yet I'm always obliged to make unthinkable and huge decisions.

Friends, studies, family, future.....all this can make that bubbling volcano inside of me explode.

Sometimes, things come to a point whereby decisions turn to things that I actually have to carry out. I rarely get to put an opinion in, its just a do it. But~ although I pour out everything onto my blog now, I only just poured out the surface of my glass of drink, what remains is something bitter.

But I'm like this, I wanna end everything off on a good note. I know that God's always here for me, and that when there's a will, there's definitely a way. God's bright light has always been shining above the black clouds, turning their dull colour into unexplainable happiness.

Waking up tomorrow, I'm definitely going to glance at the blue sky and greet it with a wide smile - a smile so wide that it'll shock the sky. Hey, who knows, maybe the sky will smile back.

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